So It's my bday today.
*pauses for cheers*
Birthdays and New Years always give me mixed feelings. They restore me some kind of renewed feeling yet dig up all ones. Sometimes, I feel a little sad one about the years gone by. A little regretful of the mistakes I've made. Even a little peeved I'm not where I said I would be by now. Then I feel thankful for what I have and sooo grateful for where I am.
Its a weird day - part of me is scared about getting older. B/c it means my parents are getting older. And my kids are getting older. Yet, part of me gets better with age. More comfortable, happier in my own skin.
Sometimes I just want to freeze time and breathe for just a moment, relishing in all the blessings I have and keep everything just the way it is in that perfect moment.
On the other hand, I have so much I want to do with this life, that time doesn't move fast enough. I have so many dreams that if life freezes, so do my dreams.
Therefore, I'm stuck in between, some days wishing my kids would stay babies, wanting my career to move forward faster. Wishing I could go back and redo some mistakes, yet knowing those mistakes got me here.
So what are my birthday wishes? I have a few...
For time to slow down - its going too fast.
For more patience - even a dose would be nice.
For my family to stay healthy and together.
To enjoy each moment more.
To get rid of some junk in my trunk. Just a few bags would be nice.
To give the girls a lift. (even just a few degrees :)
Connect more with friends (in person. I connect enough online :)
Be a great writer - wait let me be specific - to be a great "published" writer.
Appreciate the small things more and want the big things less.
Learn, Laugh, and Love.
To be a better friend.
To be a better human being.
To give back to this wonderful writing community.
To leave some kind of permanent impression on this world.
Hope you have a great day - on my birthday :)
If today was your birthday, what would be your greatest wish?